Mazes of the Mind

Really. I'm going to write up a post about my vacation. It will be quick. And lazy. But I'm going to do it. And then I'll get on with gabbering about what it is that brought me here in the first place! But yeah. Vacation. So... on July 15th, I boarded a plane headed to Edmonton, Alberta...

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Anticipation for my vacation that is. In less than a week now I will be boarding a plane and heading out to Alberta. In fact, this time next week, I will be passed out in a tent with my lover, sleeping off a night of revelry and dancing, and it will be glorious. I've been obsessively checking the weather forecast for the area, frantic every time it calls for rain. As of this moment, it says sunny during the entire festival, but hovering around a cool 20'C. I can deal with that, that's actually a really nice temperature and I would rather that than rain any day. Especially since my love's tent is quite small and not exactly made for extended hiding-from-rain stays.

A part of me feels a little guilty because another old friend of mine lives out in Edmonton and so far I have basically been avoiding talking to her about my trip... Last year she and I met up and she joined me at the festival and we spent time together etc. But this year... I've yet to actually contact her about making any concrete plans. Honestly, I'm not planning on seeing her at all. I'm going straight to the festival for 4 nights, and from there spending another 2 nights with my love at his home before flying back to Ottawa. But she's done some dumb things lately, and I do NOT get along with her new fiance - one of those dumb things in my opinion - and well... I just would rather avoid her. I'm really going out there for my love and the festival anyway, not her, and I'm under no obligation to spend time with her.

But yeah... I'm really stoked for these 2 weeks. First I'll spend 6 days in Alberta, then come home and the weekend after I will be going to the Eclipse Festival. It's just going to be mad fun, I know it. Dancing outdoors is just going to be sooo fantastic. Indoor raves are great, but when you're outside you have so much more space to dance, things just sound so clearer and more real... it's an experience in and of itself.

And not to seem bland and talk about the weather but wow... it's been in the 30's for days now, and is supposed to stay this way another week. It's been reaching into the 40's with humidity and it's really killer heat. I still prefer the heat over winter any day though... but thank goodness for AC!

It is ridiculously warm right now here in Ottawa, and a lot of other places too. Today is so hot, actually, that they're giving a Heat Warning and telling people to conserve water. It most definitely does not feel like May right now. Especially considering that just a little over two weeks ago, while I was at my parents' for Mother's Day, there was 4 inches of snow on the ground! Mother Nature cannot seem to make up her mind. It's currently 27'C but feels like 34'C, and it's supposed to go up to 33'C while feeling like 40'C. There have actually been designated "cooling centres" set up in Ottawa and Toronto, to help people with nowhere cool to go.

I wouldn't mind the heat so much either if I actually had Air Conditioning in my apartment. My rental company comes and installs the A/C every spring and removes it in the fall but this heat wave took us all by surprise and I'm still waiting. I am not happy either, because they  were calling for this heat as far away as early last week. That should still have been enough time.

And I live in a tiny 3rd floor attic apartment! It was so hot last night, I was hallucinating, falling in and out of sleep. The only way I managed to get actual slumber was by soaking my head in cold water and wetting all my hair to try and cool down. I checked one of the snake's thermometers and it read 38C/101F. That's unbelievable. And unlivable. I actually had to bring my two Crested Geckos to a friend's with AC because they would have died staying in my apartment. That's how damn bad it is.

I called my rental company again today, asking when I would get my AC, and he said he would remind the maintenance guy about it and that he had placed the work order the week before. If I don't have it when I get home tonight... I'll be staying the night at a friend's, because I can't take that heat again another night, I just can't. And I feel so bad for my little animals. I'm responsible for them and this heat is difficult to take. Especially for the cat and the rats. They have fur, which makes it worse. It was so hot yesterday, my cat was actually panting, the poor little guy.

I really hope my AC is installed when I get home from work tonight. I really, really hope so.

It's easy to get lost in day dreams and plans for the future. I have to admit I've wandered so far off the path that I can't even find myself on the map anymore. But exploring is fun, or at least, there's a desire deep down in all of us to go do some exploring. If this weren't true, no one would ever have discovered the Americas. And I wouldn't be here to tell you these things.

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That's what my mom calls a brilliant idea, a Brainwave. Anyway, I think I just had one! It was a roundabout way of getting to it, but still, brainwave nonetheless. What am I babbling about? Why, hand crafts of course! Which is what started this whole thing actually.

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I keep getting worse at this regular updating thing, don't I? Because it's been almost four weeks since my last post. And that's really a shame... So much has been going on in my life, and yet really nothing at all. It's not like I haven't had the time to post, I've spent hours at home just sitting around watching movies or gaming, or not really doing anything at all. And well, I always have time at work, goodness knows. But I haven't even been coming to read other people's posts. It's like I kind of fell off the face of the Dreamwidth Earth. But I've been doing the same thing to my friends in real life too so I guess that kind of pardons it?

I don't actually feel like updating you guys completely, probably because I've been making some big changes in my life lately, and those sort of overshadow any of the other smaller things I've been up to. I can feel myself changing into a new person. Like a caterpillar finally figuring out how to make a cocoon, and trying its best to come out as a gorgeous butterfly. Or perhaps a moth. I think I'm more of a moth really. Besides, I like moths better, heh.

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That's basically how my life is these days. I'm always running around doing things, seeing people, going places. I don't entirely mind, but it does make it so I often find myself stressed and spread out, with no time to just relax and breathe. That's part of why I haven't posted in over two weeks. I've been too damned busy.

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